It Starts

So, yesterday Johnny (my husband) tells me to cancel my gym membership...

"...since you're not going to use it."

An hour later, I'm grocery shopping, and run into my gym buddy.
We chat.
We say goodbye...
nearly.
"Wednesday morning?"
Oh! She want's me to go to the gym.
So I launch into the whole "Johnny told me to cancel my membership" story.
She said she could do Fridays as well as Wednesdays.

I think...

and think a bit more...

That only leaves me Monday morning to go myself, and then my gym bill is justifiable.

Yes. I can do that.

But here's the story.

I'm a notorious Yo-Yo Dieter.

I was a chubby kid
Skinny pre-teen
"chubby" (180 lb) 17 yo.
and a healthy 20 yo.
A "bigger" 23 yo
and a nice, balanced healthy 24-28 yo. (give or take 20 lbs, up and down, up and down.)

But now, I'm 30.
And I'm creeping up on 190 lbs.

Actually, my official weigh-in will be tomorrow morning.
I expect to see 190.1.
I haven't yet seen 19 something... ever (besides my first pregnancy a week before giving birth).
But seeing 188-189 for months and months, It's like my biggest fear.

Anyway, I have SO much I could say on this.

But the heart of the matter is this:

I'm 30.
I'm not getting any younger.
In fact, I'm getting older.
I want to be healthy, fit, and feel fit.
So this is my Last Chance.
No more ups and downs.
I'm going for it.
And I'll document my journey here.
So one day, I can inspire others.
Because I know in my whole being that I can do this.
And not just do it once and gain it back.
I know that I can transform my life, and my body, and stay that healthy fit person forever.